For the first few weeks of vacation, I was so excited on how my vacation would go, on how I would enjoy it and have fun. My friends and I planned a couple of trips to go to this and that but most of the time we ended up cancelling it. For a summary of my vacation, at first, I concluded it to be not a vacation at all. No retreats, no out of towns, no walking at the parks and as a whole, not the best thing a common teenager would want. And instead, I was stuck in our house doing chores, watching television and just.. there, just.. at home, just.. standing by for things to happen, for things to pass me by. I was frustrated on why things did not turn out how they were supposed to be and even how it just happened and slid through my hands. One Saturday midnight, I was not able to sleep. He gave me verses after verses. And from that moment on, the perspective changed. Everything changed. From frustrations, I saw opportunities to do something else and go out of the box I laid in the first quarter of the year.
I was cut off from the internet. And for some, it may 'just' be the internet. But for me it was a big thing.. BEFORE. But little by little, my heart changed. I was out of the lime light. And being out of it is never bad at all. As to the 1 Kings 17:1-7, He qualifies the called and not calls the qualified. He is doing something in me. A LOT has changed. I may not particularly enumerate it one by one but.. I was changed. The moment that I reached the very tip of myself was the moment He took over. He showed me how HE loves me so much. He was so gracious. He is so merciful. More than the greatest I have thought of. He is GOD. The God Who is the Alpha and Omega, the God who lead Israelites out of Egypt, the God Whose power none can contend, the God Who created all of creation. He is my God. He is my Father, my Bestfriend, my Protector, my Strength, my all in all and the very reason of my existence.
It is easier to wait and pursue on to things that we know when to end. But it is more challenging to wait onto something that we do not know when to end. But in these, I take a stand that my God is in charge.
